In terms of mileage, September has been a backwards step after a promising start. In terms of my mental health, September has been a backwards step after a promising start. And during my longest run for several months and certainly since I first started having issues with my iron levels, it proved to be a backwards step after a promising start. You may be noticing a theme here and although I was able to arrange a couple of things, about the only thing I can honestly say I made progress on was with my age, as my birthday falls in this month.
In early September, I had good reason to believe that the iron tablets I had been given were having an impact, as I had a quick parkrun followed by two club runs that were longer than I had tended towards and much faster, as I ran differently to the more social runs I spent much of August doing. Although I was tired afterwards, I didn’t have the same level of fatigue I’ve been experiencing for much of the last few months after any major exertion and this felt like progress was being made.
Shortly after this, things took a downturn mentally, as the list of tasks I had to do both at home and work became overwhelming and this causes significant issues, especially where it clashes with my autistic tendencies. There is a lot of planning required for an upcoming holiday as well as finalising issues from a recent car insurance claim. My work situation, which has always been busy, has become worse after someone went long term sick from a team that was already 1 fewer than required and has 1 more on holiday almost every day between now and Christmas although at least one of those is me on some of those days, so that has become extremely stressful.
Then, at the end of the month was our local Half Marathon, which I was entirely not ready for, as I hadn’t run further than 10 km for months and, as that was at the beginning of my health issues, I nearly passed out after that. But I had a fairly tough parkrun on the day before and was particularly drained during a walk around a car museum afterwards, with the amount of sneezing that suggested I had come down with a cold. Although I had taken a home test that suggested the course of tablets I was nearing the end of hadn’t restored my iron levels back above normal, it had been a little while since I had felt that fatigued after not much effort.
The Half Marathon itself started well and I was on a roughly 2-hour pace most of the way through the first half, whilst generally managing to hold a conversation with those around me. On the second major hill, which happens just before halfway, I was forced to walk for a bit, which I didn’t need to do last year and after that point, I never really got going in any major way again. Several people I would normally have been way ahead of were well ahead of me or came past me and I walked significant amounts of the course to the extent I was a full 15 minutes slower than the same course last year.
I also had the same issues afterwards that I experienced after some of my longer and harder training runs earlier in the year where I couldn’t handle eating. As we had a large meal booked afterwards deliberately because I knew I would need refuelling, this proved to be an expensive situation. The emotional downturn that went alongside the physical one, particularly the day after, was reminiscent of when my iron was at its lowest earlier in the year and this health downturn as well as the mental one has knocked my confidence needing to start a major marathon training plan in a few months.
I have blood tests booked to see if anything has happened with my iron levels and I have finally seen a physio and got exercises to work on a longstanding shoulder issue that has made me reluctant to do a lot of my morning fitness group sessions. But those things are a start and the holiday is getting much closer and having that done with and all the organisation and uncertainty that it has brought will help clear some mental space and may then allow focus on health and fitness.